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10:55am.
This is the second day I’m doing exercises in the morning, which makes me feel strong, filling my mind with lots of amazing thoughts. Today, for example, I figured out how to use the videos which I recorded while practicing the laughing meditation at the beginning of this year. I’m gonna cut them in pieces and put these pieces into those videos which I’m making now.
Yesterday, before falling asleep, I was thinking a lot about making videos. I’m not sure I want to teach English. Teaching may be useful only as a way to earn money. I’m not a teacher; I’m a student. I’d like to learn, constantly looking for better ways of working with knowledge, so that I’m always in a process of change, endless becoming and self-overcoming. Since I know English at the level of an expert, I can make videos on various subjects. I’m really passionate about attacking capitalism and promoting philosophical modus vivendi. When I say “philosophical”, I actually mean “scientific”. There is a great competition between these two “games”. Making money and making knowledge have very little in common.
Today, I’m gonna continue working on the script for my first edited video. It’s definitely incomplete without glittering examples. Now, I’m gonna have breakfast and then start writing. I wanna devote the entire day to making videos, but I also have to do some pushups and exercises like that. So I have to manage my time to get everything done, without mixing up intellectual and physical labor.
12:00pm.
I have one hour to write the script. Then, exercises; and the rest of the day, there is gonna be a lot of work with the video.
Just think about it for a moment. If you’re in this filter bubble surrounded by people who’s only concern is how to get more stuff, and they always talk about money and the goods it can buy, your RAS (reticular activating system), your selective attention, which for the most part is responsible for what you see, hear, etc., is gonna be triggered in a way that you’ll ignore almost everything else. Listen to these moneymakers trying to understand what they feel, and then imagine what’s going on in their minds! Most of them are insane. They abuse their minds to run after pure numbers, fooling themselves into believing that it makes sense. There is no big difference for these folks between what they have and who they are. They are what they have; and the more they have, the more they need.
You don’t need money if you want to become somebody. Money doesn’t help you to become a great youtuber, doctor, lawyer, teacher, engineer, football player, designer, programmer, artist, dancer, singer, writer, bus driver—when you know who you wanna be, and you may master not just one of the listed social roles but as many as you like, the real force that pulls you back is money. If you always find yourself thinking about money, there is no room for anything else to grow in your mind. That’s why so many people are dumb fools. You know, you are what you think about. You may think that you’re God and be happy with what you’ve made out of nothing, as well as you may think that you’re the most miserable creature in the universe because the numbers on your bank account are lower than your neighbor’s numbers are.
Anyway, in this video, I’ve tried to cope with my growing contempt towards this whole business industry, which I decided to study because of the reasons which I’ll talk about in the future.
13:36pm.
Well, I’ve cleaned the room and changed my mind about the exercises. Instead of doing them at home, I’m gonna run to the forest and also I’m gonna record the video there.
22:08pm.
I’ve done this damn video! It only requires music to be complete. Being the first video of this type, it looks good. I guess, I’m gonna become a remarkable youtuber. Besides, I had a great time running in the forest, walking and talking.
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